Movement 3DisorientationDay 108
The wilderness question · Exodus 17

Is the LORD among us?

Massah and Meribah

At Massah and Meribah the people are out of water, and in the dry place the disorientation finally curdles into the question that names the whole phase: is the LORD among us, or not? It is the wilderness question. Not the abstract one, whether God exists somewhere in principle, but the immediate, raw one asked by people with cracked lips and empty skins: is He here, now, in this place where nothing is working and the wells have all run dry? Notice what Scripture does and does not do with them. It does not condemn them for being thirsty; thirst is not sin, and the disoriented soul asks honest questions out of real lack. But it marks what they did with the question. They let it curdle. The thirst hardened into a quarrel, the doubt into a verdict against God, until the very place was renamed for the testing and the strife that happened there. And long after, the psalm still pleads back across the centuries: do not harden your heart, as at Meribah, as in the day of Massah in the wilderness. The question was allowed. The hardening was the danger.


They tested the LORD, saying, Is the LORD among us, or not?

Of Israel at Massah — Exodus 17:7 (WEB)

Psalm 95:8

Don't harden your heart, as at Meribah, as in the day of Massah in the wilderness.


In your own dry place the question will come, and you should not be shocked when it does: is God even here? The disoriented heart asks it, and asking is not the failure. The honest thirsty soul has always asked it, and Scripture sets the question down in the record without scolding. The danger is not the question but what you let it harden into. There is a way of asking that keeps crying toward God, and a way of asking that quietly settles into a No, a bitterness that quarrels with heaven instead of pleading with it. The first keeps the heart soft enough to receive an answer; the second seals it shut before the answer can come. So ask, if you must, and ask honestly. Bring the thirst into the open. But guard against the slow hardening, the drift from honest question to settled verdict, from crying out to closing down. Keep your heart soft enough to hear, because the water came, in the end, to a people who very nearly decided it never would.

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